Monday
Bit stressed out by this afternoon just because I was so damned tired. Didn't get all the things done that I'd intended, but then again, didn't really expect to. I spent all day cooking and cleaning. However, at the end of the day, I've done a whole lot to make life a bit easier.
Was beginning to stress about the mess in the kitchen after cleaning up everything and then making cheesecake. Decided to allay that problem by running the dishwasher once again on a fast cycle with just the dishes I'd used. Was a huge weight off my shoulders and dinner wasn't as much of a drama as it could have been. Nevertheless I had a little weep in the middle of the kitchen floor because I thought I was simply too tired out to make dinner as well.
Day-rating: 3
Tuesday
Nothing much happened today. Went to the park in the morning and wore the kids out; which worked well for naptime. Ryan had fun with Jack and Max and Marcus. Caitlyn had a bad time tonight after I got home from scrapbooking. Tooth, I think.
Day-rating: 3
Wednesday
Bit lost today. Its the last day of PND group. Last day for the kids at TurraTots too. Have to sort something out so they can go again some times. They have such a good time there. Have agreed to meet on the first Tuesday evening in May at 8. Should be good to see how everyone's going.
Day-rating: 3
Thursday
Think we stayed at home today. Can't really remember.
Day-rating: 3
Friday
Ryan went to pre-school and Caitlyn and I went to the park. It was a good day mostly. She slept well through the day too. Ryan was a bit impossible when he got home. I don't think he's been sleeping very well at pre-school still.
Day-rating: 3
Saturday
Caitlyn's first molar has come through! Finally! Noticed it this morning. Well, between cramps and being stuck inside with the kids all day, I've been an absolute Harpy. I think Darren wants a divorce. He'd be more than justified asking for one the way I've been today. I think its mostly the cramps. Darren got me naprogesic and I feel a lot better, but that might also be because the kids are in bed!!! (or maybe the two glasses of beer!) My cramps keep getting worse each period. I guess I should see the doctor.
Day-rating: 2
Sunday
Okay day; had to get organised to go out West to visit Nanna and Papa. Kids were reasonable. Went to the market with Nanna and got some scrapbooking stuff. Evening was bedlam, but that was to be expected.
Day-rating: 3
Sunday, April 25, 2004
Sunday, April 18, 2004
Week ending April 18
Wednesday
PND group did more Cognitive Behaviour therapy. Had to recount some of our "moments" and challenge the beliefs and underlying mental talk that happens when these "moments" happen. Bit ordinary today. Had trouble getting out the door this morning to go to group and ended up standing in the middle of the loungeroom floor going "I don't know what to do".
Day-rating: 2, 3
Saturday
Day out at brother-in-law's and it was really nice to go out socially with Caitlyn and be relaxed. She doesn't misbehave nearly as much as Ryan... It was so nice. Was nice to see everyone smiling.
Dodie died today at midnight. Sad...
Day-rating: 3-4
Sunday
Bit stressed about the whole going out and getting a roast thing. Darren insisted on walking which meant I had to get vegies at Coles too. Placated the kids with a donut and Ryan spilt milk all over himself. Explained why it was a hassle to Darren and I think he understood. Our anniversary today. Darren remembered first in the morning...
Day-rating: 2
PND group did more Cognitive Behaviour therapy. Had to recount some of our "moments" and challenge the beliefs and underlying mental talk that happens when these "moments" happen. Bit ordinary today. Had trouble getting out the door this morning to go to group and ended up standing in the middle of the loungeroom floor going "I don't know what to do".
Day-rating: 2, 3
Saturday
Day out at brother-in-law's and it was really nice to go out socially with Caitlyn and be relaxed. She doesn't misbehave nearly as much as Ryan... It was so nice. Was nice to see everyone smiling.
Dodie died today at midnight. Sad...
Day-rating: 3-4
Sunday
Bit stressed about the whole going out and getting a roast thing. Darren insisted on walking which meant I had to get vegies at Coles too. Placated the kids with a donut and Ryan spilt milk all over himself. Explained why it was a hassle to Darren and I think he understood. Our anniversary today. Darren remembered first in the morning...
Day-rating: 2
Sunday, April 04, 2004
Week ending April 4
Monday
Went absolutely to pieces this morning because Darren wasn't home when he said and I didn't have a backup plan for getting the kids to pre-school and day-care. Totally threw my plan of action out in the morning. Once they were all off, everything went smoothly. I went to Castle Hill and got nappies and spent far too much money at the scrapbooking shop. I got the garden tidied and some plants potted. I even got catfood and birdfood and went to the butcher before picking up Caitlyn. Forgot to get a colour wheel from the art supplies shop, but that was about it for forgetting something on my day off.
Day-rating: 1, 4
Tuesday
Managed okay in the morning but was a bit stir crazy by the time Darren was due to come home -- don't know why. Snapping at the kids and being a bit of a dragon. Trying to do too much? Darren not home? Maybe it was because I felt like Darren's job was more important than us which is so completely silly because he had to work overnight and do that stuff and be gone because he had to get work done. My rational brain needs to speak sternly to my other brain.
So needed the scrapbooking tonight. Focus on how beautiful my kids are and thinking of nice things to say about them. Focus on the days I'm scrapbooking for. Need some kind of template thingy to journal on the pages. Need to compose what I'm going to write. Need a notebook to keep with my scrapbooking stuff to write things down. Brain going at a million miles an hour and can't stop, so caught up on my journal. Hope tomorrow isn't too frantic.
Day-rating: 2, 4
Wednesday
Day was okay. Started "CBT" (cognitive behaviour therapy) at PND group.
Day-rating: 3
Thursday
Don't remember, mustn't have been to bad. Everything eclipsed by Friday.
Day-rating: 3
Friday
Darren broke his ankle on his way to work. Had to figure out what to do about getting him home etc. It was all very stressful. Nanna/Margaret came and took care of the kids for me while I went and got him and then stayed for a while to keep him company. I went to my scrapbooking/cardmaking thing. It was nice.
Day-rating: 2
Saturday
Thank God for my friend suggesting she'd come and help in the early afternoon. Kept going to pieces. She and the boys ended up staying for dinner and a bath because I kept getting so stressed. Meredith came too and Kelli did her presentation for the clothing. It was okay and the kids ran around like terrors all afternoon. I would have been okay if it hadn't been for Caitlyn getting into the toilet and pulling out the flush-wash thing. Now the loo is clean, I suppose.
Day-rating: 2
Sunday
Still feeling stressed. Feel like I'm having to do everything and resenting the fact that my weekend support has been taken away because of Darren's ankle. I know its not his fault and I'm coping as best I can. I need to find out if I can get home help on our health insurance because I keep going to pieces.
Day-rating: 2-3
Went absolutely to pieces this morning because Darren wasn't home when he said and I didn't have a backup plan for getting the kids to pre-school and day-care. Totally threw my plan of action out in the morning. Once they were all off, everything went smoothly. I went to Castle Hill and got nappies and spent far too much money at the scrapbooking shop. I got the garden tidied and some plants potted. I even got catfood and birdfood and went to the butcher before picking up Caitlyn. Forgot to get a colour wheel from the art supplies shop, but that was about it for forgetting something on my day off.
Day-rating: 1, 4
Tuesday
Managed okay in the morning but was a bit stir crazy by the time Darren was due to come home -- don't know why. Snapping at the kids and being a bit of a dragon. Trying to do too much? Darren not home? Maybe it was because I felt like Darren's job was more important than us which is so completely silly because he had to work overnight and do that stuff and be gone because he had to get work done. My rational brain needs to speak sternly to my other brain.
So needed the scrapbooking tonight. Focus on how beautiful my kids are and thinking of nice things to say about them. Focus on the days I'm scrapbooking for. Need some kind of template thingy to journal on the pages. Need to compose what I'm going to write. Need a notebook to keep with my scrapbooking stuff to write things down. Brain going at a million miles an hour and can't stop, so caught up on my journal. Hope tomorrow isn't too frantic.
Day-rating: 2, 4
Wednesday
Day was okay. Started "CBT" (cognitive behaviour therapy) at PND group.
Day-rating: 3
Thursday
Don't remember, mustn't have been to bad. Everything eclipsed by Friday.
Day-rating: 3
Friday
Darren broke his ankle on his way to work. Had to figure out what to do about getting him home etc. It was all very stressful. Nanna/Margaret came and took care of the kids for me while I went and got him and then stayed for a while to keep him company. I went to my scrapbooking/cardmaking thing. It was nice.
Day-rating: 2
Saturday
Thank God for my friend suggesting she'd come and help in the early afternoon. Kept going to pieces. She and the boys ended up staying for dinner and a bath because I kept getting so stressed. Meredith came too and Kelli did her presentation for the clothing. It was okay and the kids ran around like terrors all afternoon. I would have been okay if it hadn't been for Caitlyn getting into the toilet and pulling out the flush-wash thing. Now the loo is clean, I suppose.
Day-rating: 2
Sunday
Still feeling stressed. Feel like I'm having to do everything and resenting the fact that my weekend support has been taken away because of Darren's ankle. I know its not his fault and I'm coping as best I can. I need to find out if I can get home help on our health insurance because I keep going to pieces.
Day-rating: 2-3
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